Gosh.. WTH is wrong with me.. Im soo confused.. why must get hurt over n over again??
Shittos!! I know i love Jomlang but he didnt treasure n keep hurting me. In another hand i dunnoe how i feels towards Melt but he treated me nice. At first everything like VERY FINE. Im happy although im facing a hard time wenever i saw Melt. But everything turn out to be like FISH wen Melt started to make one step further. He confessed followed by treating n react VERY DIFF from usual. I feel so damn scared which ME,MYSELF ALSO DUNNOE WHY, when a sudden change from him. Tat scares to death!! till i broke down into tears. CRAZY ME! i know.
Im soooo freaking feel damn bad for wat ive said to Melt yesterday. But seriously i dunnoe if i really mean it onnot. All i know is that i feel sad and heart pain after this changes. FISH! hate it!
He said he love me blablabla.. I wonder is tat easy for a guy to say tat he love us and just in another mins later he said he will throw all da feelings away from him. Is tat wat love is, to them?? n why am i supposed to feel so freaking diffly and sad now?? shrugged.shrugged.shrugged. However for what i know is, if i love that person i will never give up and stay strong facing every suingle hurt that the person give me. But why they didnt think the same way as me. Im refering to THOSE PERSON whom always said he loves me.
Im scared. Too scared. Cant they understand me?? haish.. gosh.. today like freaking pathetic. I think its really a sway day for me. FISH!! hurt. hurt.hurt. Melt in da same group with me n we practically DIDNT talk to each other or even see each other face! Im soo confused with wat i feel. yar.. Its my fault.. But as i said i dunnoe whether i really meant every single words i said to him yesterday.. What makes me damn freaking sad is that he make me feel myelf damn low. I even said im sori but he just ignore it. n even say, PRETEND THAT IM NOT EXIST.. wen im trying my best to make think come back as per normal..WTF siak!
Is that the way a guy settle things up?!
Seriously n sincerely i long time NEVER feel this way towards other guys. The First guy i ever feel was Jomblang and which is like FOUR DAMN FREAKING YEARS AGO... shittos!! why i feel this way again sia... I feel i was just a victim of THEM..
Im sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad.sad.sad.sad.sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.
sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. sad.sad.sad.sad. DAMN FREAKING SAD!!! jaded. argh!!
Nah2.. i shouldnt be sad rite.. Why should i wen the person themselves heck care and dun bother at all bout how i feel.. yeah!! so yar.. haish.haish.haish.
dilemma thoughts...
MARSHAYUL.
THE SHOPAHOLIC LAYDEE..