"i never thought u would be sum1 like this..... Looks SURE can be decieving....."

Wat does MELT meant sia.. im so pissed! I dun understand why he like keep talking behind me.. I really REALLY dun understand why MELT cant tell me straight forward instead of putting it on his MSN’s nick! Argh. WTH. We argued bcos of his words oso n now he added da salt somemore. ((Looks SURE can be decieving.....))deceiving?????? Means wat? I cheat him? Im being dishonest? WAT SIA! I didn’t lied to him n yesterday I even clarified everything CLEARLY. IF im being DISHONEST, I will like just take advantage of him from the day that I knew tat he likes me. BUT I DIDN’T OKAY! N wat? He even has a gut to say tat as if im cheap n can even say tat im deceiving him. ARGH!! Tell me, whose the fish will never get angry n pissed off sia if other ppl said to them such thing especially wen ure a GIRL.?? Argh .

Gosh..I really need someone to cry on. I miss him. I miss him. I really need him right now. God plz help me.. I just cant stand all this.. wen will I get my own happiness.. Even though I pretend that I've moved on..he will always in my mind..I never found the words to say..his the one I think about each day n I know no matter where life takes me to, apart of me will always has him.. Its hurting.. Its damn freaking hurting..Its easy fur ppl to say but they will oni noe how hard it really is when they’re in my shoes lar sey.. haish.. I noe there's no use looking back or wondering.. coz he didn’t find for me.. which means he have no heart for me nimore rite.. tats wat my close fren told me.. so yar.. im really trying my best to stay strong and accept the fact.. but still I can't find ways to let him go.. SIGH.

Forlorn,

Marsha..